Too Much To Be Grateful For

This post is going to be all over the place because that how my thoughts are right now. So, apologies in advance if none of this makes sense. I am SO overwhelmed by the amount of love that has been shown to me the past two years, but more specifically this past year. Since we've bought our house, our finances have been stretched and we've been tested. We have never had a late payment on our mortgage and our home is always well cooled in the summer and well heated in the winter along with light. For that, I am grateful! We haven't been able to do a lot of "extra's". Something that I'm fine with. Sure it'd be nice to go to Disneyland or get some wall decor or area rugs, but really, that stuff doesn't matter. So I wait and save until we are able to get that extra something and then get it. And then wait and save some more until the next time. Waiting has kept us out of more debt. For that, I am grateful! But what I am the most grateful for is when things have gotten tough, my family has jumped right in. Knowingly and not. I know my family loves me. My friends, too. But this year has been so full of unconditional love and service (towards me) that it just fills my heart with such gratitude.  I have a hard time letting people do things for me and often times tell the person no when they're in the process of trying. I have heard so many times "just let me do this for you!" and so many times I feel so . . . undeserving and guilty that I can't do the same for them. But for them, I. Am. GRATEFUL!

While talking with my mom about it after she had done something nice for me, I had thanked her and said that I didn't know how to re-pay her. That she didn't even need to do what she did in the first place. She said that she once told her mom the same thing not knowing if she would be able to re-pay her while she was still alive, and her mom said to do it for someone else. I hope someday I am able to do to others as others have done to me and my family. I am eternally grateful for the people in my life and could not have been blessed with better loved ones.