Today I hit the 6 month mark of my pregnancy. (Keep in mind as you read this, that this WAS a planned pregnancy.) Gabriel turned 2 in August and the 2 months before that is when he started the "terrible two's". It actually didn't last too long. Sure he still throws fits about once or twice a day, sometimes none, but they are SO not what they were right before he turned two. He would put me in tears more times than I could count, he would hit, throw tantrums and the list goes on. I told David, "what are we doing!? i don't know how i can do TWO kids, when just this ONE stresses me out so much and makes me cry! after this second kid, we are SO DONE!" David assured me that things would get better and that we just need to take it one at a time. I've played that over and over in my head ever since. :) When Gabriel turned two, it was like something clicked inside his head..."hey, it's not so bad being two". He's been tons better since and it gets even better as time goes on. Ok, I think I can do this now.
About three weeks ago, I watched my niece for a week and she and Gabriel played really well together. (I still really have to work on teaching him to share. Makes me wonder how he does in nursery at church...) Even though they got along, Gabriel would still get territorial of me and some of his things. 'oh great!' All of those thoughts came flooding back into my head. 'what am I doing? I seriously can't do two! is he going to be like this around his new brother/sister?' And I got stressed out all over again. I kept telling myself those words - 'it's going to be ok. stop freaking out!' And by the end of the week, I was a little calmer.
Today, I think I can honestly say that I am ready for this new baby to be a part of our family. (I know, whether I'm ready or not, it's coming!) Gabriel loves to play with his cousins and with our dog, especially outside. I watch from the window as he plays in the dirt and chases Kira around and it's so cute. I love it. But at the same time it makes me sad that he's out there by himself with no one but the dog. (yes, i do go out there too) Sure we can have play dates and cousins can come over, but it doesn't fill that void. I don't know if he feels lonely, but I do for him. I try to get down with him and play with toys when I can and I definitely take the time to sit with him and read every day...he L.O.V.E.S books! But how do you divide your time as mother and house wife? Laundry, dishes, cleaning, cooking, errands, and all that other stuff still needs to get done, but you can't totally neglect your kid. Who else does he have? I guess I'm still trying to feel that one out...after 2 years, you'd think I'd know how. So yes, I am very ready for two. I can't wait 'til January. I can't wait to watch two little minnie me's run around with the dog and get dirty. I just hope Gabriel can start saying "OUR mommy" instead of "MY mommy" when I hug someone else. :)
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Life is backwards. When you are young and lack experience you have all the duties and chores. When you are wiser and older with possibly more resources then you are not as energetic to use those resources.
I love my 7 children, but there were days when anything extra would have been too much. After a time it was easy to see that when one person was gone out of the house there was a void. I would have to study as to what was missing, but it would soon become apparent that one of the children was gone. Our first two were 13 months apart. They were together in most of what they did until they were out of high school.
He'll quit saying "my mommy" and start saying "my baby". I think they are always territorial...just in different ways at different stages of life.
Two is so much better that one. Watching your kids love on each other is the best feeling...and then that feeling vanishes when they begin to argue again! :)
In raising children, 2 are easier than one. They entertain each other.
I think that big families that are trained to love each other are wonderful. Grandma and Grandpa Dunn's family were a great example of that.
What!! I didn't even know you were pregnant! Congrats! Yay for baby number 2!!!
Ok so I'm a little out of the loop, I had no idea that you were prego. That's wonderful, do you know what you're having? Once you have #2 you'll know what to do to survive and before you know it everything will be second nature.
The amazing thing is, everything that has to get done will & somehow you'll be able to more things than you ever thought possible. Having Alyssa so soon after Cody scared me to death & was very hard at times, but it was the best thing that could have happened to us!
Congrats! I also feel overwhelmed when thinking of having another one...I think one is hard! Are you going to find out if it is a boy or girl?
Carrie I loved reading this blog and think you are great. I'm glad you feel ready now because I bet everyone around you thought you were crazy thinking you couldn't handle another one--- they saw how great you are with #1!
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